I MISS YOU!

I MISS YOU

On a cold and lonely night like this
All I long for is your sweet warm kiss
The warmth of your touch and your embrace
Gave me goosebumps and smile on my face

But melancholy now is clouding my heart
Confusions.. Curiosity.. they're tearing me apart
My poor fragile heart is silently weeping;
Looking for strength and happiness, oh! poor thing..

I gazed at the moon above the dark vast skies
Hoping and praying those words aren't lies
Your promises and words that's full of love
Minimize if not fully erase the pain that I have

Where are you? Loneliness I couldn't hide..
I can't help it.. I'm burning and bursting inside..
Seconds of not seeing you seem to be years
Days without you add fire to my growing fears

The wind blew softly and it started to rain
Longing crawled slowly.. I felt sudden pain
Burning sensations traveled my eyes
Few moments after, I began to cry...


>>>TegoShei<<<

(October 16,2010)

KOKORO

KOKORO

I'm afraid to get hurt
So I tried to isolate my heart
But suddenly I met an angel
Who lured my heart into a spell

My isolated heart was part of the past
Foor I took the risk hoping it'll last
For months happiness embraced me
Exactly the way i wanted it to be

Nut when you love, I realized
A happy heart can also be paralyzed
Taking risk doesn't only involve light
You must embrace darkness and strife

And now my little heart feels numb
When it comes to love, I can be so dumb
The angel which brought me to this horizon
Also taught me of love's imperfection

I was hurt, I know
I decided to give up or so
Tried to forget this magical angel
Who, at the same time, introduced me to hell

But my little heart can also be stupid
And ruled over the brain in my head
I wanted to stop and let go
But my stupid heart shouted "NO!"

Right now, I don't know what to do..
Should I give up and let go;
Or continue to be stupid and go..
For it's what my heart is telling so.


>>>TegoShei<<<

>>>it's been a while since i haven't posted anything here... 
*sigh* it's just too sad that this entry is a heart breaking one...
>>>I love him this much that even though he keeps on breaking my
heart.. I can't still find the courage to let go.. 
>>>I can't let him go.. I wont breakaway!! I just can't..
>>>I'm stupid.. but I love him.. What can I do?? 
>>>If only he knew.. But I guess.. even if he knew, I won't be that important..
I'm nothing compared to him.. but Ironically, he's everything to me.. 
(August 27, 2010)

Lonely Heart

LONELY HEART

I feel so lonely and sad
I've lost the only love I had
Seeing you from afar felt good
But my heart cried and felt cold

You are not mine, I know
But my mind works so slow
My heart reacts first and told me to stay
Before reality spoke and told me "MOVE AWAY"

I've been hurt a thousand times
By a single guy who isn't mine
For making me feel like this, I hate you
But.. I love you more than anyone know

Even if I say "I LOVE YOU" a thousand times
I bet everything still won't turn out fine
Our situation already gave me heartache
One-sided love at times I couldn't take

I wonder why I'm still holding on
Although reality tells me to MOVE ON
Still.. although hurt, I don't want to part
I love you even tears fall down my heart.


>>>TegoShei<<<

To Tego-nyan..
Even if the sun ceased to shine... I'll continue to love you..
Even if the waters in the ocean run dry.. still.. I'll love you..
Even if you break my heart a million times.. I love you..
You are the sweetest dream I've ever had.. And if not waking up 
remains the key of being with you forever.. 
I'll never dare to wake up and leave you..
I'll continue to dream and be by your side...
I love you... not just with my heart.. BUT with all of me...

>Shei-chan


(June 10, 2010)

It's You

It's You

Thoughts of you lingers on my mind
Lovely things that I couldn't leave behind
Every smile you make takes my breath away
Every words you say, makes me happy and gay

You are indeed my inspiration
It's you where my world makes its revolution
You may be so far away from me
I can feel deep in me, I have the key

The precious key that will open your heart
That I exist..although we're miles apart
I love you.. no matter what I do
I just couldn't leave nor forget you

I know I'm pathetic when I say
That I want to be with you someday
But it's decided and couldn't do anything
For that stupid thing is what my hearts been shouting

But things happened and crushed my heart
I decided to free you.. I fell apart
Days I've tried to forget you and leave the memories behind
But I'm blinded by love..courage to forget I could not find

You are the light that brightens my day
You are the song I try to sing each day
No distance nor situations can stop me from loving you
For you are the one I'll love through and through


>>>TegoShei<<<

It's You!! Yeah it's you... This poem is dedicated to my Tego-nyan... waaaaahhh... now tell me... am I crazy?? hahaha... I honestly would accept it if you say I'm crazy coz I really am... I'm crazily inlove with this guy.. this certain guy who could never love me in return.. but I guess simply his existence is enough for me.. Enough to lighten up my day... 

(April 22, 2010)

Ame no Uta

Ame no Uta

Do you hear it? Do you feel it?
The rain is talking to you! 
Can you see it? Can you do it? 
The rain is cheering you on.. 

Rain kept falling like teardrops. 
Gently and slowly it falls. 
How wonderful it feels to be under the rain. 
But we don't seem to see what's deep within. 

The trees are dancing. 
The winds kept on blowing. 
The waves go crashing on the shore. 
Together they harmonize and create a wonderful song! 

We could sing and dance with the rain. 
How magnificent and magical it could be. 
The rain is so meaningful. 
Yet it remains a mystery. 

We couldn't hide anything from the rain. 
It knows how happy or sad we could be. 
We could cry and smile with it. 
The song of the rain is a great company. 


>>>TegoShei<<<

I love the rain! It has been a very good friend to me. I hope everyone could appreciate the rain. Rain, sometimes may mean sadness.. but even though... the rain still has it's way to make people feel at ease and happy. Hearing the rain cry.. laugh.. dance... and sing... It's the sweetest... 

(April 14, 2010)

Be TRUE... Be YOU!!

Be TRUE... Be YOU

Behind her precious smile
Lies sadness.. it's been a while
Although Mr. Sun keeps on shining
A girl's heart is silently weeping

She has been lonely it seem
Lights around her suddenly go dim
But she lay still and keep it in her heart
And kept a facade that's sweet as tart

She doesn't want anyone to notice
How miserable her simple life is
She just pretended to be happy
So she wont be a burden to anybody

Everyday she smiles and wave
But deep inside her, she's in a cave
So helpless and afraid to go out
Her mind and heart are full of doubt

But she must not keep it that way
Or else, she'll burst out one day
For her pretentious emotion
Might just bring her to another dimension

>>>TegoShei<<<

There's really no harm on being true.. You may be hurt or feel so down.. but when you're true to yourself.. when you learn to love yourself.. and be yourself.. you can really surpass all of these trials, these heartaches and obstacles that you are facing now... And being true helps you find TRUE friends as well... True friends who accept you as you and not of what you pretended to be...

(March 31, 2010)

MUSIC is YOU!!

MUSIC IS YOU

On a silent night I wished upon a star.. 
Thinking and wondering where you are..
Mind's full of unanswered questions.. 
Heart's full of crumpled emotions.. 

Sometimes, I asked myself this stupid question..
Are you true or just toying with my emotions?
Dousuru? I don't know now what to do.. 
I'm blinded by things and don't seem to know you!

People in our lives indeed come and go.. 
Who'll stay long, that we don't know.. 
But some people are really worthy to hold on to.. 
So, we tend to hold them close and don't let go..

There are times that I want to hide.. 
And set all these feelings aside. 
But damn! You're one of a kind! 
And I can't get you out of my mind..

I know at times I'm pathetic.. 
And It's really making me sick.. 
You're like my favorite song.. 
A special piece I tend to get along..

Music and you are so much alike.. 
Characteristics I both like and dislike.. 
Comparing you to music might be so bold.. 
But man! I tell you.. You rock my world!

>>> TegoShei<<<<

~weeee... XD I actually made this for Tego-nyan..

For me, he's like MUSIC.. He's someone I couldn't live without..

Gosh!!! HAHAHA....

(March 24, 2010)