shei-chan no sekai

shei-chan no sekai

Friday, October 7, 2011

The NEWS who broke my heart ...

October 7, 2011, probably would be the greatest nightmare I had as a fangirl.. I've never expected such terrible thing to happen especially to the group who I've learned to live with.. the group who I've put my trust, love and devotion .. It's such a disastrous event which slowly sank in and devoured my heart slowly leaving me with tiny, shattered pieces..

Yamashita Tomohisa and Nishikido Ryo left NEWS.. OUCH~!! That was the first word that came into my mind.. followed by.. USO~!! This can't be true... This can't be happening.. It's just a dreadful dream.. I have to wake up from this awful nightmare... But I can't do it.. I can never wake up from this bad dream... coz this isn't a bad dream at all.. It's REALITY... And all that's left for me is to accept it..

It's hard... I can't help myself from feeling down, sad, bitter, betrayed and even angry perhaps.. But with whom? To Johnny K.? To Yamapi? To Ryo-chan? or to myself?

Somehow... I want to blame Yamapi for making me feel this way.. He made us believe that they'll come back as better and stronger NEWS.. That we have to believe them and patiently wait for them.. Darn.. His words are making it more difficult for me to accept this loss..

And Ryo-chan... Why now?? This question has been bugging my mind a lot.. You've been through this for 8 years... Why now Ryo?? and Why NEWS?

I'm feeling this mixed emotions.. and I don't understand anything about this.. It's hard.. and painful.. It's as if I've lost a really big part of my life.. NEWS has made me smile... NEWS has inspired me to move on and do my best.. Their songs served as my inspiration.. my enlightenment.. my strength... BUT, who would have thought that NEWS would also be the reason of my tears.. my heartaches... my pain...

To be honest... I'm still very sad right now.. I mean.. who wouldn't be? right? But as I thought of it... What about the four members who decided to stay and carry on the name of NEWS? What are they feeling at the moment? If I was hurt this bad... How about them? How about Kei-chan... the mother of NEWS feel about losing two of her family members? How about Shige? Massu? Tego-nyan? What are their thoughts about this? How do they feel?

If it's hard for us fans to accept this.... How much more for the 4 remaining members? KoyaTegoShigeMasu..

It may take time to erase this pain... But it will be gone soon... It'll heal over time... But we can't deny the fact that it will leave a BIG SCAR and somehow an EMPTINESS in our HEARTS..

Minna... This is REALITY... and we have to ACCEPT IT... I can't blame anyone for feeling the same thing as I do.. It's normal.. It's pretty normal.. Because we LOVE NEWS... Because we are part of NEWS and NEWS is part of US... Let's all REMEMBER that NEWS is a 7 member-group..

YAMAPI... RYO.. KOYAMA... SHIGE.. MASSU.. TEGO-nyan.. and US....

Let's continue to support and LOVE NEWS... Let's continue to support and be happy for Yamapi and Ryo's decision...

and of course...

Let's all hold our hands together.. Stand up... Move on... SMILE... and BE STRONG for the FOUR MEMBERS who NEVER LEFT US...

NEWS WILL ALWAYS BE NEWS...

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Nandemonai...

It's been 2 weeks since I broke up with my bf.. hehehe ^^ Things aren't just meant to be.. and it's indeed really hard to keep up with a long distance relationship.. I mean.. it's ok as long as you have constant communication.. But we lack that one.. However.. being with him for 3 months has been nice. I'll always treasure the memories.. It may ended up too soon than we expect it to be... I'm still glad you came to my life... Thank you so much..

And now.. I'm trying to move on ^^ Back to my own fantasy world again.. Back to being a crazy fangirl.. And back to Tegoshi Yuya's arms.. hehehe.. Yes.. I have a LOT of crushes.. but then.. in the end of the day.. I still go back to my original love.. Tegoshi Yuya.. Yes... It has always been an unrequited love but I don't care.. I'm happy simply by doing this. I mean... Tego-nyan has always been an inspiration for me and I guess no one can take him away from me for he's in my heart.. =)

And so, I made this cover only for him.. It's my way of saying thank you for inspiring me... and for giving me more reasons to live and go on with life ^^ Tegoshi Yuya... douzo..



that was it ^^ I know I'm no good when it comes to singing... unlike Tego-nyan.. hehe.. but at least.. I'm really trying my best for him.. *sigh* If only he knew... =)

Until here my friends ^^ will be updating soon =) Jaa ne~

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Busy..

Lately, I've been really busy. Duty + School + Review + Deadlines. It sucks but I have to strive real hard. I have my dreams and to achieve it, I have to do my part. However, despite my busy schedule, I still find time to flail. I'm still able to watch anime =) still have the time to download new songs from my favorite jpop groups. Although I'm not really that updated unlike before.. at least I am able to watch PV and download some.. hehe =)

I've read somewhere (i forgot where exactly) that Kisumai's Everybody Go will be released in the Philippines this September 24.. Ohh~!! I hope they sell here in my place. I really want to secure one for myself =) I mean, I already have downloaded it from the internet... but being able to have the real CD is way more better.. haha.. And it's a way of supporting them, right? And hopefully, this is a start. If Kisumai's single sell well in my country then maybe Johnny Kitagawa would let the other boys release their stuffs here as well.. Ohh~ Me wants that~!!!

Hmmnn... unfortunately, I haven't written anything for my post tonight.. Haven't composed stuffs for a while now. I wish I had more time... but yes, there's time for everything.. hehehe =) Oh well, take care everyone =)

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Just Random =)

Hey there everyone =) Finally got some time to update my blog.. I've been missing fandom like hell but yeah.. First Things First.... ohh gosh~!!! I'm really not updated anymore T_T and it sucks.. but can't help it...
Lately I've been pretty busy with school and duty... well.. Anime is still on my list though... the last anime i watched was Nodame Cantabile seasons One and Two... It was LOVE =) It's just so dreamy to think about how MUSIC relates everyone's feelings... and ohhh the love story :)))) woohooo~!!!! I wanna be in love ^_^
But, I'm always in love, right??? hahahah =) Darn it.... Minna, will you believe it that I got myself a really hot boyfriend?? HAHA~!! So.. do you believe me?? Ohh~!! I couldn't believe it myself ^_~ But it will remain a secret for now.. ahohohoho... XD But heckkkk~!!! He's one busy dude T_T and I miss him like hell... XD
Wait.. have I mention that he's a great catch?? LOL... my friends often tell me to keep him and lock him up or else... you know... really a lot of girls are after him... (one proud gf) And i really wonder.. why me??? LOL.. *gets kicked*

So... i have here a poem.. out of randomness.. of course... and i call it... RANDOMNESS... hahaha XDDD

As the night grew, I blankly stared
Trying to think if someone cared
There's this certain emptiness inside
That I just couldn't put aside

I'm happy but I felt weird
There's still something I feared
It's as if I'm walking in the dark
And on me, written a question mark

What is this? I can't explain
I'm unconsciously riding a train
Traveling somewhere far and wide
Finding a place to run and hide

Can someone help me find out?
Someone who'll care without a pout
Make me understand this feeling
That until now, I kept on wond'ring


END.... ok that was it... hehehehe =) *sigh*
ohh.. what else should i put??? ok... here's a picture of Moi~!!!
Don't be scared.. Ok?? hahahaha XDDD



Until here =) will update again soon ^_^
TegoShei Harumi

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

I LEARNED WHAT LOVE IS FROM LOVING YOU




I Learned What Love is From Loving You
(a ShouXHarumi&&ShinXKiyomi fanfic)
By: Yamada Harumi (TegoShei Kim)


PART ONE: Something Interesting

It was summer.  The weather was good, a perfect time for picnic.  

“Sis Harumi, faster~! I’m so excited to go out in the park.. Everything seems so perfect. The weather.. the food.. the scenery..” Kiyomi was babbling at her sister.

“Hai.. hai.. I’m coming now. I just have to prepare my camera,” she smiled while showing her sister the camera on her hand, “ You know… we might find something interesting and for memories sake.” She winked.

Kiyomi laughed at her sisters childish yet naughty act.. She knows her sister pretty well and she know exactly what “something interesting” means. “Such a bakka sis~!!!” she commented..

“I know… hahahaha” Harumi answered her with a laugh.

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On the other hand…

“Maa.. I can’t imagine us spending time like this bro.. it’s been a while nee?” Shou excitedly murmured to his brother Shin.. They were at the park. Just a while ago they were playing basketball and now they were lying on the grass while watching the clear blue skies.

“You’re right Aniki.. We deserve to have a break anyway… you know.. from all the busy schedules.. from recording to guestings.. Man.. I’m tired..” Shin said.

“Yeah right…” agreed Shou.. He gently closed his eyes and started to relax.. still on a lying position beside his brother.

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“Sis… this is a perfect spot~!! Let’s place the blanket here…” Kiyomi suggested to her sister. They placed their picnic basket and prepared for their picnic bonding together…

They chitchat for a bit before Harumi decided to excuse her self.

“Anou.. sis.. I’ll leave you for a bit.. I wanna take some pictures of the sky.. and look at the clouds over there… It’s sooo kawaii…”

“Okay sis Harumi.. Take your time.. I’ll just relax here for a bit and enjoy my music.” After saying so, Kiyomi took out her ipod from her bag and listened to random music on her list.

Harumi was busy… She enjoys taking pictures of random things a lot. She took pictures of the trees, the flowers, the sky. She even took some pictures of the children who were enjoying themselves by playing under the summer heat.

She continued to walk and then the lens of her camera captured “something interesting”. She took off the camera from her eyes and looked at that certain direction. Again, she placed her eyes on the camera and focused at that spot.. “OMG~!! This isn’t a sin right? Just a single picture.. it’s enough… right?” she thought and freely pushed the camera button into a click.

She reviewed the captured picture from her camera… “Ohh.. such a lovely view.. “ she commented.

“What lovely view? You mean.. my brother?” a deep voice ringed behind her.

“Ooops.. Busted..” she thought.. she was frozen and couldn’t move from her spot.

“Hey… young miss?” the guy from behind her made her face him… Hurriedly, she closed her eyes for she was damn embarrassed with what she did.

The guy, upon seeing her expression was at first stunned but later on a sweet smile appeared on his lips.. “Nee… daijobu… open your eyes… I’m not gonna eat you or something.” He said with a small grin.

Although with thumping heart, she slowly opened her eyes and saw an angel with a devilish grin. “Shit~!!!” her mind shouted. “Go—gomenasai.. Don’t worry… I’ll erase it now.. I’m really sorry.. I~”

She was not able to continue for the guy spoke.. “My name is Shou.. and you are?” he said.. now smiling at her while he held out his hand..

“Anou… Harumi desu…” she said while doubtedly receiving his hand for a handshake and was shock when the cute guy in front of her lightly squeezed her hand.. she abruptly took her hand out, and the Shou lightly laughed.

“And that sleeping guy over there.. is my brother Shin..” he said..

“Ahh.. I’m really sorry Shou.. Please don’t tell your brother about this.. I mean.. “

“No.. it’s okay dear… by the way… why don’t you join us.. I mean.. I’ll introduce you to him…” he said teasingly.. However.. Harumi didn’t mind… Her eyes were only laid on Shou… “He’s so kakkoi.. and … I don’t know.. he’s so good to be true..” she thought..

“Ahh… No.. Shou… Actually, I’m with my sister right now too.. we were having a picnic, just a small bonding together.. you know..” she said..

“Ohh.. I see.” He said.. while waving at his brother’s direction who is now on his way towards them… which harumi didn’t even notice.. “So.. what if.. we join both of you? I mean.. me and my bro and you and your sis..” he asked…

“Errr… o—kay…” she answered.

Before heading their way to Kiyomi’s direction, Shou introduced her to Shin… But thankfully, he didn’t bust her from his brother about the incident a while ago. Shou just told Shin that he bumped at Harumi while he was on his way back to him and Harumi was busy taking pictures of the sky and didn’t even notice him coming..

So.. that was the scene that Shou explained… Harumi just nodded and told the same thing with her sister.
The four of them had picnic together… They shared food and got to know each other…

“Uhmmnn.. minna… I guess I’ll be buying some ice cream for the four of us… what do you think?” Kiyomi suggested.

“Okay sis.. I’ll go with you.” She was about to stand up when a hand stopped her.

“No need Harumi.. I’ll go with her…” Shin suddenly stood beside Kiyomi… “So, let’s go?”

Kiyomi just nodded shyly… and they slowly walked to where the ice cream stand is…

“Don’t worry Harumi.. you’re sister is with safe hands… Maa, I guess my brother likes her.” He commented.
Harumi just nodded and smile at the thought.

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“Nee.. Kiyomi… wait up.” Shin said while catching up on her… “ I mean.. we don’t have to hurry…. Right?” he smiled at her…

“Err… but Harumi and Shou is waiting for the ice cream and~”

“Don’t worry dear… my bro is with her… she won’t even notice that time flies.” He said with a wink.

Kiyomi got what he was trying to tell and slowed down her pace. “Alright, you win.” She smiled.

Shin smiled back at her. “Kiyomi….” He said..

“Hmmmn?” Kiyomi looked at him.

“Errr… nothing.. I just wanted to say your name. It sounds beautiful… I mean.. it suits you.” He looked at her dreamily into her eyes.

Kiyomi blushed all of a sudden and her heart started to pound a bit faster. “Shockz~!!! This guy is insane…”she thought.

“And you look so much cuter when you blush Kiyomi,” Shin continued to compliment her.

“Come on Shin. Stop joking around.” She said with a small laugh and tried to act normally by slightly hitting Shin’s shoulder… However, what she did was wrong.. It was all wrong. She only gave him the chance to do his move.
Shin caught her hand and place it between his hands. “Really.. I am not messing around. I honestly like you.” He said seriously with dreamy eyes.

Kiyomi gulped and froze. “Come on Shin, we barely knew each other. I mean, we just met… right?”

“I know… that’s why…” he looked at her and smiled, “Can I see you again tomorrow? I mean… if that’s okay with you..” he asked hopefully.

“Etoo~..” she was about to answer when Shin touched her chin and made her face him.. straight to the eyes… “and Kiyomi, I won’t take no for an answer.”

Kiyomi gulped again but honestly… her heart was loosing its control.. it was running all over her body and couldn’t find the right spot were it should be placed normally.

“So???” Shin asked again..

“I guess I’m left with no choice…” she answered and smiled slightly.

“Yosh~!!!! So I’ll see you again tomorrow… Okay???” he said with a pleasing grin “Now, let’s grab some ice cream…” he said and energetically started his way to the ice cream stand.

Kiyomi just shook her head… Her emotions mixed with excitement, worries and unending happiness.

After buying themselves and there sis and bro some ice cream, they started their way to the meeting place.

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“Yosh~!!! Arigatou Harumi… I really want to know you better. So, I’ll pick you up tomorrow, okay?” Shou said with cute excitement.

“Hai… hai… “ she said.. She really felt at ease with him. He’s so serious yet with a sense of humor.

“Yo~!! Delivery… delivery…” Shin shouted with energy. Happiness was obvious in his voice.

“Hahaha… thanks bro…” Shou accepted the ice cream and gave one to Harumi.

“Arigatou.” She said and looked at her sister who was still a bit red from blushing. She just smiled silently.

They spent a little bit more time together in the park. When it was getting a bit darker, they all decided to go home… The two guys send their newly found friend home so that they’ll know the address and could pick them up for their dates the next day…


>>> TO BE CONTINUED<<<

Monday, May 9, 2011

Random Thoughts~!

Ohisashiburi desu ne BLOG-kun~!!! Man... I always say that every time I post here... It surely takes me some time before I write or update again... Sore wa.. gomen nee? ;)

Hmmnn.. so.. what am I going to write now?? Well... My life is boring.. Aside from spending my Summer Vacation at home and wasting my time watching anime.. visiting my favorite websites.. Listening to non-stop music.. Flailing with my Sisnichans.. I came to a realization that my life isn't boring at all.. lol.. XD

Hmmmnnn.. Recently, I've met a group of pretty and lovely ladies.. They're my virtual sisters and we call each other SISNICHANS... It's a really wonderful feeling being part of that group.. We came from different country all around the globe but we are one by heart.. We all have this single desire.. and that is to someday... Be in JAPAN~!!! yay~!!! :) I treasure them so much.. and so I made a poem for them...

here....


To My Sisters

Life has been blunt and boring
Not until I found these sweet earthlings
Kiyomi, Mayumi, Hiromi, Manami and Natsumi
My pretty sisters that's so good to me

For always being there, I thank you
You've erased the boredom and the blue
You've brightened every day of my life
And gave me another reason to smile

You girls are simply amazing
You all have halo and invisible wings
Yes, pretty angels that are sent from above
Who's worth it to care for and to love

I hope this sisterhood doesn't only end virtually
For what I feel for you is reality
I've always considered you as a part of me..
Coz it's just the way it should be

Please do remember that I'm just here
Although far by distance, let's not fear
Let's keep in touch and stay real..
Soon we'll meet and that's a deal...


>>>Harumi<<<

Harumi --> that's my Japanese name :) Cool.. deshou?? hehehe.. ^^ 
It means Springtime beauty.. nyay~!!!

Anyhow... hmmnnn... what else... yeah... Let's talk about LOVE :) 
That's the most exciting topic.. right?? Lol.. Maybe for some.. but for me???? hmmnnn...
can't tell... I guess.. I'll just leave a poem here... ^_^
It's about Love... LOL...

sore dewa~!!!! DOUZO....


LOVE THAT'S NOT MEANT TO BE

No matter how hard I hide from reality
I'm always caught by love that's not meant to be
Long distance... Untold feelings...
Sad and unanswered greetings

I'm Miss Sunshine who thinks positively
But, why can't I love freely?
I have doubts and unanswered questions
It's hard.. like being trapped in a weird dimension

I want to get to know you
Coz for me, this is something new..
I want it to be filled with honesty
And let it be judged by destiny

You're an exact replica of the sky
You're something big and so high
I can't reach you coz I can't fly
But if you'll give me a chance.. I'll give it a try

Maybe this is just impossible
And I find myself unreasonable
But somehow... I know that
You're also human and has a heart

I just hope that you're really true
Coz just thinking about it makes me feel blue
No matter what.. Even in the end it'll hurt me
I'm willing to hold on to this love that's not meant to be....


~~~~> my post ends here... *winks*

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Can't Help Myself.... :)

In life, we meet people who even in our dreams and strangest imaginations never existed. But there are just times when these people pass us by... No... they didn't just passed by.. But stopped and changed our life...

These past few days, I've really been into a song by a Filipina artist.. and this song was entitled, "Can't Help Myself"

I've been so engrossed with the song and it made me ask myself, "To whom shall I dedicate this wonderful song?" And then I came to know you... Yes... you~!!! :)

I want you to listen to this song... It wasn't sang by me though.. but maybe soon.. I'll sing it myself.. hahaha.. XD Please listen and read the lyrics with an open heart... ^_^

And also... I want to thank you... *although you told me not to say so..* but still.. thank you... somehow... you made me feel special... I hope I'll get to know you more... so... Here's the song.. Kitte kudasai ^_^