Just Random =)

Hey there everyone =) Finally got some time to update my blog.. I've been missing fandom like hell but yeah.. First Things First.... ohh gosh~!!! I'm really not updated anymore T_T and it sucks.. but can't help it...
Lately I've been pretty busy with school and duty... well.. Anime is still on my list though... the last anime i watched was Nodame Cantabile seasons One and Two... It was LOVE =) It's just so dreamy to think about how MUSIC relates everyone's feelings... and ohhh the love story :)))) woohooo~!!!! I wanna be in love ^_^
But, I'm always in love, right??? hahahah =) Darn it.... Minna, will you believe it that I got myself a really hot boyfriend?? HAHA~!! So.. do you believe me?? Ohh~!! I couldn't believe it myself ^_~ But it will remain a secret for now.. ahohohoho... XD But heckkkk~!!! He's one busy dude T_T and I miss him like hell... XD
Wait.. have I mention that he's a great catch?? LOL... my friends often tell me to keep him and lock him up or else... you know... really a lot of girls are after him... (one proud gf) And i really wonder.. why me??? LOL.. *gets kicked*

So... i have here a poem.. out of randomness.. of course... and i call it... RANDOMNESS... hahaha XDDD

As the night grew, I blankly stared
Trying to think if someone cared
There's this certain emptiness inside
That I just couldn't put aside

I'm happy but I felt weird
There's still something I feared
It's as if I'm walking in the dark
And on me, written a question mark

What is this? I can't explain
I'm unconsciously riding a train
Traveling somewhere far and wide
Finding a place to run and hide

Can someone help me find out?
Someone who'll care without a pout
Make me understand this feeling
That until now, I kept on wond'ring


END.... ok that was it... hehehehe =) *sigh*
ohh.. what else should i put??? ok... here's a picture of Moi~!!!
Don't be scared.. Ok?? hahahaha XDDD

 

Until here =) will update again soon ^_^

TegoShei Harumi

I LEARNED WHAT LOVE IS FROM LOVING YOU

I Learned What Love is From Loving You

(a ShouXHarumi&&ShinXKiyomi fanfic)

By: Yamada Harumi (TegoShei Kim)

PART ONE: Something Interesting

It was summer.  The weather was good, a perfect time for picnic.  

“Sis Harumi, faster~! I’m so excited to go out in the park.. Everything seems so perfect. The weather.. the food.. the scenery..” Kiyomi was babbling at her sister.

“Hai.. hai.. I’m coming now. I just have to prepare my camera,” she smiled while showing her sister the camera on her hand, “ You know… we might find something interesting and for memories sake.” She winked.

Kiyomi laughed at her sisters childish yet naughty act.. She knows her sister pretty well and she know exactly what “something interesting” means. “Such a bakka sis~!!!” she commented..

“I know… hahahaha” Harumi answered her with a laugh.

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On the other hand…

“Maa.. I can’t imagine us spending time like this bro.. it’s been a while nee?” Shou excitedly murmured to his brother Shin.. They were at the park. Just a while ago they were playing basketball and now they were lying on the grass while watching the clear blue skies.

“You’re right Aniki.. We deserve to have a break anyway… you know.. from all the busy schedules.. from recording to guestings.. Man.. I’m tired..” Shin said.

“Yeah right…” agreed Shou.. He gently closed his eyes and started to relax.. still on a lying position beside his brother.

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“Sis… this is a perfect spot~!! Let’s place the blanket here…” Kiyomi suggested to her sister. They placed their picnic basket and prepared for their picnic bonding together…

They chitchat for a bit before Harumi decided to excuse her self.

“Anou.. sis.. I’ll leave you for a bit.. I wanna take some pictures of the sky.. and look at the clouds over there… It’s sooo kawaii…”

“Okay sis Harumi.. Take your time.. I’ll just relax here for a bit and enjoy my music.” After saying so, Kiyomi took out her ipod from her bag and listened to random music on her list.

Harumi was busy… She enjoys taking pictures of random things a lot. She took pictures of the trees, the flowers, the sky. She even took some pictures of the children who were enjoying themselves by playing under the summer heat.

She continued to walk and then the lens of her camera captured “something interesting”. She took off the camera from her eyes and looked at that certain direction. Again, she placed her eyes on the camera and focused at that spot.. “OMG~!! This isn’t a sin right? Just a single picture.. it’s enough… right?” she thought and freely pushed the camera button into a click.

She reviewed the captured picture from her camera… “Ohh.. such a lovely view.. “ she commented.

“What lovely view? You mean.. my brother?” a deep voice ringed behind her.

“Ooops.. Busted..” she thought.. she was frozen and couldn’t move from her spot.

“Hey… young miss?” the guy from behind her made her face him… Hurriedly, she closed her eyes for she was damn embarrassed with what she did.

The guy, upon seeing her expression was at first stunned but later on a sweet smile appeared on his lips.. “Nee… daijobu… open your eyes… I’m not gonna eat you or something.” He said with a small grin.

Although with thumping heart, she slowly opened her eyes and saw an angel with a devilish grin. “Shit~!!!” her mind shouted. “Go—gomenasai.. Don’t worry… I’ll erase it now.. I’m really sorry.. I~”

She was not able to continue for the guy spoke.. “My name is Shou.. and you are?” he said.. now smiling at her while he held out his hand..

“Anou… Harumi desu…” she said while doubtedly receiving his hand for a handshake and was shock when the cute guy in front of her lightly squeezed her hand.. she abruptly took her hand out, and the Shou lightly laughed.

“And that sleeping guy over there.. is my brother Shin..” he said..

“Ahh.. I’m really sorry Shou.. Please don’t tell your brother about this.. I mean.. “

“No.. it’s okay dear… by the way… why don’t you join us.. I mean.. I’ll introduce you to him…” he said teasingly.. However.. Harumi didn’t mind… Her eyes were only laid on Shou… “He’s so kakkoi.. and … I don’t know.. he’s so good to be true..” she thought..

“Ahh… No.. Shou… Actually, I’m with my sister right now too.. we were having a picnic, just a small bonding together.. you know..” she said..

“Ohh.. I see.” He said.. while waving at his brother’s direction who is now on his way towards them… which harumi didn’t even notice.. “So.. what if.. we join both of you? I mean.. me and my bro and you and your sis..” he asked…

“Errr… o—kay…” she answered.

Before heading their way to Kiyomi’s direction, Shou introduced her to Shin… But thankfully, he didn’t bust her from his brother about the incident a while ago. Shou just told Shin that he bumped at Harumi while he was on his way back to him and Harumi was busy taking pictures of the sky and didn’t even notice him coming..

So.. that was the scene that Shou explained… Harumi just nodded and told the same thing with her sister.

The four of them had picnic together… They shared food and got to know each other…

“Uhmmnn.. minna… I guess I’ll be buying some ice cream for the four of us… what do you think?” Kiyomi suggested.

“Okay sis.. I’ll go with you.” She was about to stand up when a hand stopped her.

“No need Harumi.. I’ll go with her…” Shin suddenly stood beside Kiyomi… “So, let’s go?”

Kiyomi just nodded shyly… and they slowly walked to where the ice cream stand is…

“Don’t worry Harumi.. you’re sister is with safe hands… Maa, I guess my brother likes her.” He commented.

Harumi just nodded and smile at the thought.

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“Nee.. Kiyomi… wait up.” Shin said while catching up on her… “ I mean.. we don’t have to hurry…. Right?” he smiled at her…

“Err… but Harumi and Shou is waiting for the ice cream and~”

“Don’t worry dear… my bro is with her… she won’t even notice that time flies.” He said with a wink.

Kiyomi got what he was trying to tell and slowed down her pace. “Alright, you win.” She smiled.

Shin smiled back at her. “Kiyomi….” He said..

“Hmmmn?” Kiyomi looked at him.

“Errr… nothing.. I just wanted to say your name. It sounds beautiful… I mean.. it suits you.” He looked at her dreamily into her eyes.

Kiyomi blushed all of a sudden and her heart started to pound a bit faster. “Shockz~!!! This guy is insane…”she thought.

“And you look so much cuter when you blush Kiyomi,” Shin continued to compliment her.

“Come on Shin. Stop joking around.” She said with a small laugh and tried to act normally by slightly hitting Shin’s shoulder… However, what she did was wrong.. It was all wrong. She only gave him the chance to do his move.

Shin caught her hand and place it between his hands. “Really.. I am not messing around. I honestly like you.” He said seriously with dreamy eyes.

Kiyomi gulped and froze. “Come on Shin, we barely knew each other. I mean, we just met… right?”

“I know… that’s why…” he looked at her and smiled, “Can I see you again tomorrow? I mean… if that’s okay with you..” he asked hopefully.

“Etoo~..” she was about to answer when Shin touched her chin and made her face him.. straight to the eyes… “and Kiyomi, I won’t take no for an answer.”

Kiyomi gulped again but honestly… her heart was loosing its control.. it was running all over her body and couldn’t find the right spot were it should be placed normally.

“So???” Shin asked again..

“I guess I’m left with no choice…” she answered and smiled slightly.

“Yosh~!!!! So I’ll see you again tomorrow… Okay???” he said with a pleasing grin “Now, let’s grab some ice cream…” he said and energetically started his way to the ice cream stand.

Kiyomi just shook her head… Her emotions mixed with excitement, worries and unending happiness.

After buying themselves and there sis and bro some ice cream, they started their way to the meeting place.

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“Yosh~!!! Arigatou Harumi… I really want to know you better. So, I’ll pick you up tomorrow, okay?” Shou said with cute excitement.

“Hai… hai… “ she said.. She really felt at ease with him. He’s so serious yet with a sense of humor.

“Yo~!! Delivery… delivery…” Shin shouted with energy. Happiness was obvious in his voice.

“Hahaha… thanks bro…” Shou accepted the ice cream and gave one to Harumi.

“Arigatou.” She said and looked at her sister who was still a bit red from blushing. She just smiled silently.

They spent a little bit more time together in the park. When it was getting a bit darker, they all decided to go home… The two guys send their newly found friend home so that they’ll know the address and could pick them up for their dates the next day…

>>> TO BE CONTINUED<<<

Random Thoughts~!

Ohisashiburi desu ne BLOG-kun~!!! Man... I always say that every time I post here... It surely takes me some time before I write or update again... Sore wa.. gomen nee? ;)

Hmmnn.. so.. what am I going to write now?? Well... My life is boring.. Aside from spending my Summer Vacation at home and wasting my time watching anime.. visiting my favorite websites.. Listening to non-stop music.. Flailing with my Sisnichans.. I came to a realization that my life isn't boring at all.. lol.. XD

Hmmmnnn.. Recently, I've met a group of pretty and lovely ladies.. They're my virtual sisters and we call each other SISNICHANS... It's a really wonderful feeling being part of that group.. We came from different country all around the globe but we are one by heart.. We all have this single desire.. and that is to someday... Be in JAPAN~!!! yay~!!! :) I treasure them so much.. and so I made a poem for them...

here....

To My Sisters

Life has been blunt and boring

Not until I found these sweet earthlings

Kiyomi, Mayumi, Hiromi, Manami and Natsumi

My pretty sisters that's so good to me

For always being there, I thank you

You've erased the boredom and the blue

You've brightened every day of my life

And gave me another reason to smile

You girls are simply amazing

You all have halo and invisible wings

Yes, pretty angels that are sent from above

Who's worth it to care for and to love

I hope this sisterhood doesn't only end virtually

For what I feel for you is reality

I've always considered you as a part of me..

Coz it's just the way it should be

Please do remember that I'm just here

Although far by distance, let's not fear

Let's keep in touch and stay real..

Soon we'll meet and that's a deal...

>>>Harumi<<<

Harumi --> that's my Japanese name :) Cool.. deshou?? hehehe.. ^^ 

It means Springtime beauty.. nyay~!!!

Anyhow... hmmnnn... what else... yeah... Let's talk about LOVE :) 

That's the most exciting topic.. right?? Lol.. Maybe for some.. but for me???? hmmnnn...

can't tell... I guess.. I'll just leave a poem here... ^_^

It's about Love... LOL...

sore dewa~!!!! DOUZO....

LOVE THAT'S NOT MEANT TO BE

No matter how hard I hide from reality

I'm always caught by love that's not meant to be

Long distance... Untold feelings...

Sad and unanswered greetings

I'm Miss Sunshine who thinks positively

But, why can't I love freely?

I have doubts and unanswered questions

It's hard.. like being trapped in a weird dimension

I want to get to know you

Coz for me, this is something new..

I want it to be filled with honesty

And let it be judged by destiny

You're an exact replica of the sky

You're something big and so high

I can't reach you coz I can't fly

But if you'll give me a chance.. I'll give it a try

Maybe this is just impossible

And I find myself unreasonable

But somehow... I know that

You're also human and has a heart

I just hope that you're really true

Coz just thinking about it makes me feel blue

No matter what.. Even in the end it'll hurt me

I'm willing to hold on to this love that's not meant to be....

~~~~> my post ends here... *winks*

Can't Help Myself.... :)

In life, we meet people who even in our dreams and strangest imaginations never existed. But there are just times when these people pass us by... No... they didn't just passed by.. But stopped and changed our life...

These past few days, I've really been into a song by a Filipina artist.. and this song was entitled, "Can't Help Myself"

I've been so engrossed with the song and it made me ask myself, "To whom shall I dedicate this wonderful song?" And then I came to know you... Yes... you~!!! :)

I want you to listen to this song... It wasn't sang by me though.. but maybe soon.. I'll sing it myself.. hahaha.. XD Please listen and read the lyrics with an open heart... ^_^

And also... I want to thank you... *although you told me not to say so..* but still.. thank you... somehow... you made me feel special... I hope I'll get to know you more... so... Here's the song.. Kitte kudasai ^_^

a Fresh look~!!!

yay~!! it's been a while since I last posted here... and I missed it... Don't worry my dear blog.. I'll be posting more often... Yakusoku~!!! :) and yeah.. I've given you a new look... Did you like it??? hahaha ^_^ I really hope so... :) so.... uhmmnn... I guess I'll be leaving a video here...

I really love this song.. It's the opening song from La Corda D'Oro... It's super relaxing that I feel like floating on air everytime I hear it :)

A Sweet Confession

A Sweet Confession ( a TegoMasuPi FanFic )

“Konnichiwa minnasan~!” greeted the host of a popular talk show in Japan. “Today, we have a very special guest.. Help me welcome… TegoMasu~!”

                TegoMasu then entered the scene starting off with Tegoshi who introduced himself with his hand signature followed by a bright-smiling Massuda.

                “Ahh! Thank you so much for inviting us here host-san.” That was Massu.

                “Iie.. It’s our honor to have both of you here in our show..” replied the host.

                “Wow! Thank you so much.” Said Tegoshi.

                The host of the said show motioned them to sit down. The duo followed. Massu was being a gentleman that he let the younger guy sit first and be comfortable before he sat beside him. This simple gesture made the fangirls grew wild with pure admiration towards them.

                “So,” the host started, “TegoMasu is having a new single, right?”

                “Hai..!” they said in unison. They looked at each other.. their eyes were communicating, Tegoshi nodded at Massu. It’s like a signal that he’ll let the latter announce their single.

                “Hai… Hai…” Massu said, “ our new single is Aoi Bench and it’ll be released on February, I hope you’ll all support us, neh?”

                Excitement from the audience was in the air.

                “Minna!” Tegoshi called up their attention.. “Do you like to hear a few lines from our song?”

                Everyone agreed.. There was silence from the audience as the duo sang a part of the song in acapella. And when it ended, everyone was clapping and cheering.

                “Arigatou~! Please support us as you always did, nehh?!” Tegoshi said in a cute manner.

                “Maa~ no one can resist such a cute creature!” the host commented.

                The audience agreed and made a loud roar. Massu, on the other hand, couldn’t help himself but smile while looking at Tegoshi. He was silently admiring his self-proclaimed other half.

                The interview went on for a few minutes before the host showed a surprise message for the two, “Hai.. douzo!”

                The crowd started to yell and flail when a hot guy appeared on screen.

                “Konkon minna~!! Ehh.. Please do support TegoMasu’ new single the way you supported me and NEWS. I’ve always loved these two.. So, Massu and Tegoshi, Ganbatte ne? and Omedetou! Just do it~!!!”

                “Kakkoi~!” Tegoshi commented in a low voice. He has always been admiring their leader everdince.

                Massu, who heard what he said just shut his mouth. But deep inside, he’s bleeding. Yes! He’s jealous. So jealous of YamaPi. But he can’t do anything. He knew of Tegoshi’s admiration for Pi. It’s hard for him but fear is somehow enveloping his heart. He’s afraid that if he tell Tegoshi how he feel, the younger would grew aloof and put a gap between them.

                Massu woke up from his thought when Tegoshi pat his shoulder.

                “Neh? Daijobu?” he asked worriedly at Massu.

                “Hai..” he flashed him his smile.

                The show ended with them thanking Yamapi, the staff and the audience.

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“Massu!” called Tegoshi, he was half-running towards him.

“Uhn? Nande?” he turned back to face Tegoshi. He was about to go to his car.

“Ano~ can I tag along? I didn’t bring my car. Please?” he pleaded using his puppy-like charm.

“Brat! Like I have a choice?”

“Yattah! Iku yo~!!” he dragged Massu to the parking area. He was unconsciously holding the other guy’s hand as he walked playfully. This simple connection between them made Massu’s heart skip a beat.

“If only Tegoshi knew.” He sighed.

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“Ahh~ Shiawase data. Hearing that from Pi made me really happy. What do you think Massu?” he asked.

They were in the car. Massu was driving while Tegoshi is sitting beside him.

“Uhn.. Yeah.. I’m happy too.” He answered plainly.

“Maa~ he’s really kakkoi. I don’t know but I admire him a lot! Yamapi is just so great.!”

Tegoshi kept on mentioning Yamapi. He kept on praising him without even knowing that everytime he does, a tiny crack appears on Massu’s heart.

They arrived at Tegoshi’s place.

“Thanks for the ride. Do you want to come inside? I’ll prepare some snacks.” He invited. Massu accepted the invitation, not because of the food but because he still wants to spend more time with the guy he secretly loved.

A happy aura welcomed him as they entered Tegoshi’s unit. Tegoshi let him sit on the sofa first while he prepares the snack.

His eyes roamed around the room. He saw pictures of NEWS, Tegoshi’s family, friends. He even saw a picture of them together but he also saw something in that room which made him frown. And that frown was not hidden from Tegoshi’s eyes. The latter looked at the spot where Massu was staring and found out  it was his collection of YamaPi’s singles and albumtogether with a YamaPi uchiwa. Tegoshi smiled.

“Are~? What is that frown for?” he teased Massu.

“Ehh? Am I frowning? No.. I’m not!” Massu tried to sound happy.

“But I saw you,” Tegoshi continued,” ehh…? Is it just me or you’re jealous with YamaPi?”

“Me? Jealous? What are you talking about?” Massu said, he was uneasy this time.

Tegoshi continued to tease him. He acted like a spoiled brat and a bully at the same time.

“So what if I am?” Massu gave up. So what if I’m jealous? Can you do anything about it? Yes Tegoshi.. I’m jealous. And I hate it everytime you show your admiration towards him. I hate it every time you mention his name when it is me you are with.”

Silence filled the air for a few moments.

“I’m sorry about that..” Massu sighed and looked down.

Tegoshi smiled silently and went near him. He lift the older guy’s head to face him.. “Then, why didn’t you tell me?” he asked.

“I.. I was afraid.. I’m afraid that I might lose you.” He confessed.

Tegoshi sat beside him.. “Do you love me?”

Massu turned to his direction. He looked straight into the younger’s eyes.. “Yes, I love you.. I’ve always loved you.. I’m sorry that,,”

“Shhhhh.” Tegoshi stopped him from saying anything by placing his index finger on Massu’s lips.

“Are you not going to ask me if I feel the same way too?”

Massuda gulped. Their position at that moment was insane that he felt like a galloping horse was inside his chest. He sighed, “Do you love me?”

Tegoshi smiled sweetly at him. For a moment, they were motionless.. They just staring into each others eyes.. waiting for something to happen.. And then~.. Tegoshi closed the minute space between them and gave Massu a kiss.

Massu was surprised that even after that kiss, he was still motionless. It took a few minutes for him to go back to his system.. And when he did, “ Does that mean?”

“Yes Massuda Takahisa.. I love you too…”

Upon hearing those words, Massu automatically hugged him.. “But.. What about YamaPi?”

Tegoshi run his fingers on Massu’s cheeks.. YamaPi.. is someone I admire.. BUT.. Massu.. is someone that I love.. And there’s a really big difference between the two, right?”

“Ohh~!! Tegoshi!!! You don’t know how happy I am~!! I love you~!! I love you so much!”

“I love you.. I love you.. I love you too.. my Massu~!” Tegoshi answered with equal happiness.. Each word was sweet and true.

This time, Massu took his move.. He held Tegoshi’s waist and pulled him closer to him.. and slowly, their lips met. Massu kissed him with such passion. Overwhelmed with what’s happening, Tegoshi place his arms around Massu’s neck and answered the latter’s kisses with equal gentleness, passion and love..

>>> The End<<<