Hello minna =) as usual~ my line would be.. Ohisashiburi desu ne~~:) how are you readers? hope you're all doing great :) As for me, I'm doing pretty well.. I had a 2 weeks vacation from school... (currently on the last week) so I'll be going back to school next week.. >.>
During vacation, I gave myself a project and that is to write a story. Minna, the world is liberated. We don't live in stone-age anymore. And so, I bet everyone is aware of this Boy~x~Boy love affair. Well, if you're from fandom (Fangirl Kingdom), this type of genre isn't new to you. I chose to write this type of story because... let's just say, I admire Yaoi (boyXboy). The love is forbidden... And when it's that kind of love~ mostly if not all is REAL. People who are being judged for who they love... people who are being screwed up by society, somehow, in my opinion is PURE and SINCERE. Why not? They'll go against everything and everyone just to fight for their LOVE. And that's what I admire most.
So, I won't hold you for long~~.. Comments, good or bad (BUT DON'T BE TOO HARSH) are pretty much appreciated.
WARNING: Some chapters contain scenes not really suitable for children, so parental guidance is advised. (LOL)
Ok~~~ have Fun :)
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ただ、きみをあいしてる
~~I have always wanted to experience such a genuine, pure and true love. I wanted to find someone who would care and love me as I wanted. Someone who could just sit beside me and make my day complete. Someone so fragile that I could face everything just to protect that someone from being broken. ~Jeff
~~I just wanted to love and be loved. I may sometimes be sensitive, easily hurt and fragile but I would do my best to protect the love that I feel for someone who truly deserve it. I wanted someone to care for and to give my heart out to. I wanted to find my true love. ~Kevin
Chapter 1: A fresh start…
Such a lovely day to hangout. The sun was shining ever so brightly but at the same time it was windy as well. Perfect combination.. not too hot.. not too cold.. just right. People are basically outside, enjoying the lovely weather that the place is experiencing. Families, circle of friends, students from school, group of kids and lovers are spotted in the area.
“Everyone.. the weather is perfect. I guess I’ll try to enjoy it. Be back later ne?” Jeff posted as his status in a social website before he went outside for a walk.
And so, there he is.. all alone. Walking, enjoying the fine weather and scenery.. all alone. But it wasn’t for long coz today might be his lucky day.
He was taking pictures of some scenes from the park when suddenly he bumped into someone. “Ohh! I’m sorry I wasn’t looking at all. Sorry.” he said while trying to help the person he bumped into to stand up.
“Ahh. It’s okay.. no worries. I’m sorry too I wasn’t looking as we~” the person he bumped into didn’t finish what he was supposed to say.. He was starstrucked? If that’s the right word to describe it. He stood up back on his feet, tried to wipe some dust and smiled. “I’m Kevin.”
“Ohh~ I’m Jeff.. I’m pleased to meet you and sorry about a while ago.” He tried to apologize once again.
“Don’t worry~~ a cup of coffee will do.” Kevin said jokingly, trying to compose himself. He wasn’t well at all. Not because of the sudden collision they experienced just now. But because of the unfathomable wild beating of his tiny heart. Lubbdubb.. Lubbdubb.. It says but twice.. thrice.. or even five times as fast.
Jeff slowly smiled more to himself as the idea of what Kevin has told him slowly sinked in. “Hey.. what on earth am I feeling.. Could it be??” he asked himself.
“Actually I’m just joking.. It’s really okay. I guess I have to go.”Kevin said with a smile when he still has gotten no reply from the other guy. This statement has somehow woken Jeff up, “Ahh~ It’s alright. I’ve got nothing to do as well. So.. you know a place? I mean.. for coffee?”
Kevin’s face lightened up. He didn’t mean to show obvious happiness but he just couldn’t hide his smile. “Really?”
“Sure do..” Jeff answered trying to equally return the smile that Kevin was showing.
“Cool.. I know of a place. Just two blocks from here. Shall we?” that was Kevin.
“Okay.. Let’s go.”
Kevin led the way for he was the one who knew the place. It wasn’t that far from the park. It was just a few blocks away. When they were in the shop, they placed their orders and enjoyed their coffee. They were also trying to get to know each other. Asked random questions of w’s and h. They were in the middle of the conversation when Kevin blurted out something that for a moment sent Jeff’s spirit to outer space.
“Jeff, I like you.. I mean.. not as a friend.. but as a guy. I’m sorry if I brought this up all of a sudden but I just feel like saying it.” Kevin said while confidently looking into the other guy’s eyes. Although deep inside he was even more surprised of what he just said, “Mouuu~ I guess I should just stand on what I’ve just said.. pabo Kevin.” He thought to himself.
Jeff was taken aback with what he just heard. “Did he just confess to me?”
“Jeff? Are you alright? Hey cheer up. It’s not as if I’m hurrying you up with an answer. I was plainly telling how I felt. I didn’t mean to scare you or something.” In the last statement, Kevin’s voice went a little off which did not escape Jeff’s hearing.
“Kevin~ah, well I guess I was just a bit surprised. You caught me off-guard there. Didn’t even saw that coming. But thank you.. I really appreciate your feelings. Man~ this is the first time I heard it from.. you know~ same gender but don’t get me wrong neh? I have nothing against it.”
“Ohh~ thanks Jeff.. and I’m sorry.. I guess I was just too honest.”
“No.. don’t be sorry. I like it.. I mean.. you, being honest.” Jeff answered with a smile to somehow lighten up the mood and bring it back as it was a few minutes ago.
They continued their friendly talk, exchanged contact details and went home separately. When Jeff arrived home, his phone beeped. “Thanks Jeff.. I enjoyed that small time being with you. I’m glad to meet you and sorry again. Hope to see you again soon.”
Jeff stared at the message for a few more minutes before he finally decided to reply, “No problem.. J This day isn’t the last time.” And press send.
He then decided to take a little nap after he has washed himself. But before drowning to a small sleep, scenes from a while ago circled his mind…. “I like you not as a friend.. but as a guy.”
Chapter II: What others think…
Jeff woken up from that tiny nap that he had. Actually, he wasn’t really having a nap, it’s more on closing his eyes and think. Think of the past scenes which occurred during that day. He thought of that boy.. yes, that boy who just out of a sudden confessed to him. But, it’s not because that he felt weird about it.. it’s more on confusion.. “We’re both guys.. I mean.. I’m a straight guy but why do I keep thinking about it? Why does he leave a really great impact to me? Is it because he’s pretty? Damn~! He’s even prettier than any other girls. This is just so wrong.. but, why? Why do I feel so right?”
He went downstairs to eat it off for he thought maybe he was just hungry and as soon as he’s able to cure his hunger, he’ll be able to get over it. Well, at least that’s what he thought.
After he has eaten, things were just the same. The thoughts of Kevin and of his confession still linger on Jeff’s mind. “Maybe I should let other people judge. This isn’t normal at all. Well perhaps it is but I want other’s opinion about it.” He thought.
He opened his laptop and turned it on going to the social site which he’s usually logging into to cure his boredom. He started to type in his status for that night. “This is a really memorable day for me. A guy, who looks like a girl confessed to me that he likes me.” He posted it and waited for a few minutes for some comments from other people.
A couple of comments came, “Oppa, don’t mind that guy. You’re a straight guy, right? It is not good”, said one of the comments. “Noooooo~ don’t do that~!!”said the other one.
Jeff stared at the monitor for quite some time. “I bet they’re right. It’s not right. What I’m feeling now isn’t right. I’m being bothered by something like this,” he thought.
He was about to thank his virtual friends for their comments when a certain comment from a new friend came in. “Ohh~ how cute is that Jeff. I find that really cute.”
“Cute? How come it’s cute?” he found himself typing those instead of the answering the first few comments.
“That guy is brave enough to tell you how he felt. I mean~ I know it might look awkward but I really admire the guy’s honesty. That’s why I said it’s cute.” Harumi, the new friend commented back.
“I bet you’re right. I admire his honesty too. So people, I guess I have to sleep now, it is kind of late. I’ll talk to you again tomorrow. Jaa~” he posted last before he turned his laptop off.
“Now, what should I do? Seems like not everyone is against this kind of stuff” he told himself but what he couldn’t believe is that he smiled. The thought of having someone who understand and not against such kind of stuff made him happy. “What is this? Why am I happy? Does this mean I’m giving myself the chance to resort into something as unusual as this? Well, why not? Let’s just see what fate might bring me and my Kevin..ehh? my Kevin? I guess I really have to sleep it off.”
Lights off~~ and slowly serenity came to his senses…..
Chapter Three: Fate brought us here….
It was definitely unplanned but somehow fate brought them back together. Jeff was busy with something on his laptop. He was in a café near the university when suddenly a familiar face showed up.
“Hyungie~! You’re here..” Kevin greeted with such enthusiasm.
“Ohh~! Kevin.. yeah.. just thought of chillin’ for a while here.” He answered without taking his eyes from his laptop. It’s not that he’s busy or something, it’s just that he felt conscious. He didn’t know how to describe it exactly but Kevin’s presence is just too hard for him to handle. It was different from the first time he saw him. Kevin was dazzling. Was he sparkling? Jeff couldn’t find the right words to describe it.
“I bet Hyungie is busy neh.. I guess I’ll disturb you some other time.”Kevin stated and then started to walk away. But unexpectedly Jeff’s hand automatically caught Kevin’s elbow, “Don’t!” But before he realized what he’s done, Kevin gave him a meaningful look and smile.
“Sit with me Kevin. I’m not busy. I was just checking some email in a certain social site. Have you heard of Tagged?” he asked while gesturing Kevin to sit opposite to him on the table.
“Ohh~ that site? Sure did, but I didn’t make an account there though.” He answered.
“I see. It’s a nice site I suppose. I’ve met friends from different places and talk with them about random stuff.”
“That’s nice.. I guess I’ll give it a try.” Jeff looked at Kevin and smiled. “Wanna do it now? You can use my laptop if you want.”
“Is it ok with you?”
“Sure do.” He then moved his laptop around to face Kevin. The other guy happily received the gadget from Jeff but was surprised when Jeff also grabbed his chair and placed it beside him.
Kevin tried to act normally but Jeff’s presence beside him is driving him insane. He can feel the warmth that comes out from the other guy’s body. Each time their fleshes came in contact accidentally or not, Kevin’s heart skips a beat. It was as if there was an electric current coming from Jeff’s body which makes Kevin stiffens.
On the other hand, it wasn’t a secret to Jeff about what Kevin is feeling. He can feel the other guy’s reaction every time his skin touches his. And it’s weird coz he himself is enjoying it. He loves how Kevin’s body reacts with the light contact they have. And as he was enjoying the scene he didn’t even notice that Kevin was staring at him.
“Hyung~ ?? I said I am now registered.” Kevin blurted with a small laugh. “And yeah.. You look cute when you blush.”Kevin winked.
Jeff’s face even became warmer. He can feel that he’s turning red for his ears were somewhat like burning. “Aiioo~ don’t look at me like that Kevin. Now.. just add me up..” he turned the laptop his way and typed in his email address for Kevin to add him as a friend.
“Haha.. thanks Hyungie.. Anyway.. I have to go now. I have to have a haircut. So, I guess I’ll just be seeing you around then.” That was Kevin.
“Okay Kevin~ah. See you again soon. I’ll be heading home too. Maybe I could catch you online later. Take care, okay?” Jeff said as Kevin stood up.
He watched the younger guy as he slowly disappeared through the café’s glass door.
Chapter Four: Will you be my wife?
Jeff arrived in his apartment later that day. He was still a bit elated with the series of happenings. “Wow~ have I gone crazy??” he asked himself. He then decided to take a shower for the feelings of elation somehow is bringing goose bumps up to his spine.
On the other hand, Kevin has just finished having his haircut. As he arrived home, he faced the mirror and smiled. “What a handsome guy you are Kevin.” He said feeling contented with what he had seen. Well, can’t blame him he’s just too honest J After which, he took off his clothes and hit the shower.
“Okay~ time to chill.. I wonder if Hyungie is online” Kevin said excitedly as he turn his laptop on and logged on to Tagged. “Ohh~ not here yet.. I better upload some pictures.”
A few moments of having his picture uploaded, there were series of friend requests coming. Mostly are from girls and some are from boys. Kevin accepted them and talked friendly random things with some of his new virtual friends. He was having fun that he didn’t came to notice that the person he has been waiting for ages to come online finally showed up.
It took him quite some time to notice that Jeff has uploaded some photos as well. “Nice pictures hyungie.” He commented. “Thanks Kevin.” The other guy replied.
They were having random conversations. Commenting on each other’s status. Playing around… Fooling around.. Enjoying every moment. They were like best friends although it hasn’t been a secret between them that Kevin likes Jeff. However, there is this issue that Jeff hasn’t resolved yet. Is he, in any way in love with Kevin?
Along their conversation, there was this girl named Rose who joined them. She was friendly and just plainly going along with the conversation. But, it wasn’t for long. Let’s just say that this girl has a bit of a hidden desire towards Jeff. And somehow along the way, she discovered about Kevin’s feelings for the guy she likes and apart from that, she has this feeling that Jeff was slowly taken away by Kevin’s charm.
“Neh~ Kevin.. Stop commenting on Jeff’s status. He is my boyfriend and it’s not nice seeing you comment in his status. You are both guys and besides, he’s taken.. by me.” she commented evilly.
Kevin and Jeff were both shocked with the girl’s revelation. So, Jeff sent her a message privately. He didn’t want to appear rude so he asked her in a nice way why on earth did she do that?
“I’m sorry Jeff. But what I did is for you. You are a straight guy and it is not nice for you to have a guy like him in your life. It’s not good at all. And society will not accept you for that. You’re a guy. You should like a girl like me and not a guy like him.” She messaged him in return.
“You should like a girl like me and not a guy like him… Wait a minute, does this mean?” Jeff was slowly drowning into a conclusion which he thought would never be realized. “I like him. I like Kevin.. no~ I love him. He’s making me crazy like this. His presence makes me complete. His simple existence is what I’ve been waiting for all these years for my life to be complete. I love him.”
And so, because of this realization he wanted to take risk and grab this one time opportunity of having someone to love and protect. Although he knows for a fact that this battle he’ll be joining is definitely not an easy one. He’ll be going against the society’s norms and mores and at the same time, it’ll be a risk for him as a son. His family isn’t any ordinary family but he wanna try. Worst comes to worst, he’s taking the risk.
“I hate both of you. Don’t play with me like this. I hate you and you Jeff don’t talk to me ever again.” This was the comment that made Jeff’s blossoming world start to wither. “Damn it~!” he cursed.
Kevin’s heart has been broken. It was shattered into tiny little pieces. He couldn’t just take the fact that Jeff has a girlfriend and didn’t even warn him about it. “He’s the worst. I hate him.” He thought. But somehow, there is this minute voice inside his heart telling him not to lose hope. That this entire thing the girl was telling him is a lie. That he should listen first to Jeff’s side of the story.
“Kevin, what’s wrong?” said a message from one of his new friends. “Harumi, please read my past status.” He answered.
Harumi followed what Kevin asked her to. She read his past status which comprises Jeff and Rose’s comments. The situation was somehow clear to her coz apart from Kevin’s knowledge, Harumi is a common friend. She has known Kevin and his feelings for Jeff without him telling.
Harumi tried to comfort Kevin and at the same time she was talking with Jeff privately.
“Jeff, what happened? Is that true? I mean.. you and that girl?” she asked.
“Harumi, help me. I don’t know what to do now. No, it’s not true. I don’t even know that girl personally. I only met her in this site. Harumi ah~ Kevin will not talk to me anymore. He’s not answering me.” Jeff messaged back.
Harumi realized that the love they had wasn’t a one sided love affair. It wasn’t only Kevin who’s in love but Jeff as well. She can feel it through Jeff’s message. She can read worry, confusion and love in Jeff’s message.
“Yosh~! Anything in the name of love—I’ll help them.” She told herself as she decided to act as cupid again.
She tried to convince Kevin to give Jeff a chance to explain. She wanted Kevin to know how Jeff really felt for him. On the other hand, she was also encouraging Jeff to be honest not just to Kevin but also to himself.
“Harumi~~ Jeff said he loves me.. What should I do?” Kevin asked for her advice.
“Ohh~ Kevin, you’re so cute.. How do you feel about it? I mean.. What do you feel for him? If you know the answer, then that’s what you’re going to reply.”
Simple sweet conversations; these are what there is. Harumi forwarded Kevin’s messages to Jeff and vice versa. Until such time Jeff told her to read his status.
“Dear wife, I don’t care if you’re a guy or if you’re a girl. What’s important is that what I’m feeling for you is true. I love you and I cannot just let you go. I’ll be here for you and protect you. --- Kevin, will you be my wife?”
“Wow Jeff, that was really sweet. Let us wait for his reply, ok?” she sent him privately. Harumi and Jeff waited for Kevin to reply.
“Harumi~~ I feel like a high school girl. That pabo~!” Kevin messaged her.
“Haha.. cute Kevin, your husband is waiting for your reply. Haha.” she answered him.
A few moments later, finally, they got an answer.
“Yes Jeff. I will be you wife. You pabo~!!”
At that time, Jeff couldn’t decipher where to place his feelings. His happiness was crawling out from his senses. He doesn’t know where to put every positive emotion he is feeling at the moment.
“You are mine Kevin and no one else can have you.” He promised himself to stand on this promise which is to become a perfect husband to his wife. From that day forward, Kevin is the most precious thing to him that there is no damn way he can afford to lose such gem.
“ I love you my Kevin,” he commented.
“I love you too my Jeff.” The other guy answered.
They thanked Harumi for supporting them. She became Jeff’s little sister and Kevin’s best friend. They might be miles away from each other but this very happening is such a precious memory that the three of them should keep especially to the people in love Jeff and Kevin.
Chapter Five: The First Date
Yesterday night was memorable. Two people in love were tied up with a promise to protect and treasure each other. Before they went offline that night, Jeff asked Kevin for a little time the next day. He wanted to see him. He was excited to finally see his wife. Not that he hasn’t been seeing him but this’ll be the first time to see Kevin not as a friend but as someone special. Kevin agreed and decided to see Jeff the next day. Both of them couldn’t really sleep well that night. They were in the state of euphoria that only people in love can understand. They were hyper and couldn’t think of anything else. It was just so…. MAGICAL~!
Morning was for their other activities however, their afternoon was reserved for each other.
Jeff was constantly checking is watch, “please let it be 3pm already.” This gesture didn’t escape the eyes of the people around him. “You in a hurry Jeff?” someone asked. “Sort of,” he answered briefly.
Kevin, on the other hand was pacing back and forth. In some way, he felt nervous. He finds it funny but he can’t just let the idea of seeing Jeff, his Jeff, later this day. “This is going to be our first date as a couple. Aioo~ I really didn’t expect this but.. I’m happy. I really am.”
The clock finally striked three. Jeff was patiently waiting for his princess to arrive. He was in the park, the park where it all started. He was silently sitting on one of the benches under the tree. He was looking downward trying to watch his shadow which the sun allowed him to see, when another shadow showed up. A familiar built of body, he thought, and when he looked up to that shadow’s owner, he saw a smiling Kevin. “He came!”
He gestured Kevin to sit beside him. They had exchanged hi’s and hello’s. They’ve asked the common, how was your day type of question. After which, everything halted to a stop. Somehow the atmosphere was eerie and a bit awkward. Few minutes later, Jeff broke the deafening silence between them.
“Kevin, you are mine now, right?” he asked without looking at him.
Kevin looked at his direction and smiled at the blushing Jeff. It was quite obvious that he is nervous as Kevin can see his sweat dripping. “Yes, I bet I told you that last night.”
“Uhmn.. You see, I really love you. It’s my first time to feel such thing to a guy. I am straight at least there was that before. But at the moment, I still find it awkward. You know, we’re both guys and I don’t know how to act right. Man~ this is our first date and I’m having this feeling that I’m gonna screw it up. I’m sorry Kevin.”
Kevin placed his hand on top of Jeff’s, “You don’t have to worry about anything boo~ I know it’s still a bit awkward for both of us but you know it’s still fresh. Our relationship, that is. But really, don’t have to worry on what to do or how to react, just act naturally. I mean, what do you want?”
“Boo~ I want to keep you forever.” That was all that Jeff could say… those short yet meaningful and promising words.
Jeff smiled at Kevin’s surprised expression. He took off Kevin’s hand that was resting on top of his. He looked at Kevin in the eye and without looking anywhere else, he slipped his fingers into the spaces between Kevin’s fingers. Their fingers intertwined~ palms locked, eyes looking beyond each other’s soul full of love and cute hesitations. Slowly, the distance between them has unconsciously shortened. Their faces were centimeters away from each other. Kevin was able to smell the manly scent of Jeff’s body. Jeff can feel the shallow yet rapid breathing of Kevin. They can hear each other’s heartbeat.. two different heartbeats which was becoming one in every millisecond.. Slowly, they both closed their eyes. As Jeff’s lips touched Kevin’s, everything else disappeared. It was as if nothing else existed but them. The kiss was slow at first, they were somehow savouring the taste of each other. Jeff placed his free hand at the back of Kevin’s neck, deepening the kiss. It was full of passion and love. When the kiss ended, they were both gasping out for air. That was their first kiss and a really memorable one.
They decided to leave the park and went to a snack bar to eat. Silence was between them but their hearts are doing the communication. After it, they decided to take a walk. They took pictures, talked, walked, talked, took pictures. But these stuffs didn’t bore them at all. It was as if everything that they do together was meaningful and just so priceless. They wanted time to just stop so they can be together like this forever. Happy, in love, contented.
Their first date ended up with a dinner. Jeff has never enjoyed eating dinner as he is right now, same with Kevin.
Jeff brought Kevin home to his apartment but decided to leave his wife to rest. “I’ll stop by some other time, okay? Sleep well tonight and I’ll meet you up again tomorrow. I love you boo.”
“I love you too, boo. Thanks for today.” Kevin answered.
Jeff stole a cute peck on the other guy’s lips before he smiled naughtily and waved goodbye.
“See you tomorrow.”
Chapter Six: You’ll never be alone again…
Their first date was definitely not the last. They spent time together almost every day. Walking hand in hand, sharing smiles and laughter, spending precious time together, as simple as that.
Then one time, Jeff brought Kevin to one of his favorite places, the Han River. Jeff usually go there when he feels blue, when he feels gloomy or even when he just want to chill and enjoy nature’s charm. The Han River is also a perfect place for a date. During day time, the clear blue sky is being reflected on the river. It’s somewhat like a huge mirror which bears the beauty of the vast atmosphere. And at night, the scenery is just so lovely. The reflection of the city lights add up to its magical feel.
However, Kevin’s reaction wasn’t what Jeff was expecting at all. Kevin was crying. Jeff has no idea why that all of a sudden. Kevin’s tears were falling uncontrollably. “Jeff, please, just take me home.” He begged, tugging into Jeff’s arms. Jeff let out a small sigh but smiled, “Okay boo~ if that’s what you want.” He placed his arms around the sobbing guy and tried to comfort him as they went back to the car.
Jeff drived him home. Deafening silence encircled them. The car’s engine and the small sobs coming from Kevin were the only ones that were audible. When they got into Kevin’s apartment, Jeff led him to his room. “You should rest boo. I’ll bring you some hot choco, so wait for me, okay?” Kevin just nodded and lay down.
When Jeff returned with a small tray on his hand, he saw a peaceful and serene Kevin. He was moved by the sad expression that was somehow, still visible in Kevin’s sleeping face. He placed the tray on top of the bedside table and sat on the bed beside the other guy. For a few moments, he stared at him. He stared at the guy who changed his life... the guy who made him feel loved and special… the guy, who in a small span of time became the most precious thing to him. He caressed the sleeping guy’s hair, he has no intention of waking him up. “I might not know everything about you yet, but whatever it is that’s part of you, the very detail that saddens you, I’ll gladly embrace it. You are my world now, so whatever that you’ve been, whatever you are and whatever you’ll become, I’ll accept it without hesitations. I love you and that’s all I know.” He whispered and gently kissed Kevin on the forehead.
He stayed there for a few more minutes before finally covering Kevin’s tiny body with blanket. “Goodnight my Kevin, I’ll see you tomorrow.” He gave him a final gaze before slowly closing the door.
The next morning Jeff woke up not because of his clock’s alarm but because of the constant ringing of his phone’s message alert tone. “Boo, why’d you left me alone last night?”~~~ “Boo, why’d you go home without telling me, you should’ve waken me up.” ~~ “Boo, I’m sorry about my last messages, I just felt so lonely waking up alone in my room.” ~~~ “Boo, I’m sorry about how I acted yesterday, there are just things that I couldn’t just forget and let go~ I’ll make it up to you next time… I love you boo.”
Jeff smiled. He couldn’t just easily let go of such a wonderful and sweet person. Every single day, his reasons of not letting Kevin go away from him multiply. Every single day, his love for him grows. And because of that, every single day, he wanted to confess and tell Kevin how he really feels for him like it was both the first and the last time.
Few days passed, Jeff and Kevin had another date. Well, they usually go to the park, but this time they decided to try another one. This time, they chose to have fun and enjoy in Lotte World.
Lotte World is basically a recreational area: a place to unwind and have fun. It is a perfect spot for entertainment and sight-seeing. It is an indoor theme park and at the same time an outdoor amusement park.
The couple were both excited and eager to try every ride that they wanted to try. They were like running and enjoying every moment. They took pictures, the ride different stuffs, they watched parades and entertainment shows. It’s as if the word, tired, is not in their dictionary that day.
However, the moment started to get emotional when the couple rode the Ferris wheel. Kevin was looking at his reflection at the glass window of the cab they were in and started to sob.
“Boo? What’s the matter?” Jeff moved closer to him and wrapped his arms around him. “Are you not feeling well? Tell me please.” He sounded worried.
For a moment, Kevin didn’t speak; he plainly rested his head on Jeff’s broad chest for comfort. Being this close to him never fails to make him at ease. Staying by his side made him realize the true meaning of serenity and perfection..
“Jeff, there are a lot of things that you still don’t know about me.” Kevin started, he slowly pulled his head from the other guy’s chest to face him.
“Kevin,” he hold Kevin’s shoulders, “If you’re not ready to tell me everything, it’s okay. You don’t have to force yourself. I love you for who you are when I met you.”
“No Jeff, in order for me to fully give myself to you, I want you to know who Kevin really is.” He took both of Jeff’s hand off his shoulders and placed it on his lap and held it with his. “Jeff, I came from a broken family, my mom is Japanese and my dad is Korean. I once had a twin,” he started to sob once again. “But he died, and because of that somehow my mom hates me and somehow, it was also the cause of my parent’s separation. Maybe, you find me dramatic or a crybaby, but Jeff, I am weak. I feel so alone, that every time I see my reflection on the mirror, I just can’t help but think of my lost twin.”
After the heart-squeezing revelation, Kevin couldn’t put up with the heavy emotions he is feeling and broke down into Jeff’s open arms. “Hush now my Kevin, hush now. Thank you for trusting me with your life story and I’m very proud of you. You said you were weak but in fact you are strong boo. You’re the most honest person I’ve ever known and that made you stronger than anyone else.”
Jeff imprisoned Kevin into a hug and said, “Never.. ever say that you’re alone boo. I am now here. I will never leave you nor make you feel that you are alone. Boo, I will protect and love you… but promise me one thing.” Jeff pulled himself away from Kevin and look at him straight into the eyes. “Never, even in your thoughts runaway from me coz I don’t know if I can handle it. I don’t even remember what life was before I met you.”
Kevin’s eyes started to become watery again, but before his tears fell, Jeff wiped it off with his hands and cupped Kevin’s face. “You promise me that, okay?” Jeff’s voice was hopeful yet full of manliness and authority.
The other guy slowly nodded and smile, “Yes boo~ I promise you that. Leaving you is does not exist in my vocabulary and it will never be.”
“I love you boo~!”
“I love you too.”
Jeff then crossed the spaces between them and kissed Kevin on the lips. He tasted both the salty taste of tears and the natural sweetness of Kevin’s lips. He kissed him with passion and a promise of protection. Kevin then responded to his kisses, he encircled his arms around Jeff’s neck as Jeff pulled him closer into a tight embrace. For a moment, they stayed that way, leaving all the worries behind. The world is theirs and everything in it are just rainbows and butterflies.
Chapter Seven: A night to remember…
They had their dinner after that revelation scene in the ferris wheel. And then, Jeff drived Kevin home into his apartment.
“Jeff, would you like to come in for something to drink? Tea perhaps?” Kevin asked.
“Well, will you mind?” Jeff asked back.
“No, not at all. Let’s go?”
Kevin lead Jeff into his living room, “Take a sit first boo and I’ll prepare tea for both of us, ne?” Jeff just nodded and smiled.
“Kevin has finally opened up to me and it made me really happy. It just shows that what he feels for me is true. I bet I’m the luckiest guy on earth for having him. But, how about him? Is he lucky enough to have someone like me?” he thought.
“In deep thoughts, boo?” Kevin noticed as he was brought in with him the tea he prepared. He sat beside Jeff and handed him one cup and got the other one for himself. “What were you thinking?”
“Boo, I love you.” Jeff said and placed his palm on Kevin’s lap. “I was really moved when you told me about your past and about your family. Thank you so much for trusting me boo.”
“No problem about that, it’s just that I felt that it was the right thing to do. Now, I can fully be myself when I’m with you. No more what if’s… no more insecurities.” Kevin explained.
“I wanna do the same.” Jeff blurted out.
“Ehh?” Kevin looked at him with confusion.
“Well, I bet you already know that my family isn’t that ordinary, right? I mean, we’re the typical wealthy family where love does not exist. We rarely see each other, my parents are always busy, I live on my own yet I can buy anything I want. My dad has this company and such. They protect our name so much that if they’ll come to know about this. I mean, about our relationship. I have no idea what they’ll do just to end it.” He paused, trying to see the other guy’s reaction.
Kevin was facing downward. His expression is so sad and depressed that Jeff couldn’t even take a look at it anymore. He moved closer to Kevin, moved the other guy’s head to face him through his chin and kissed him. “They may be against it but I wouldn’t care.” He whispered and kissed him again.
Kevin ended the kiss and pushed Jeff slightly away from him. “But boo, what if~”
“No more what if’s please. I don’t want to think about it. What’s important for me is now. Answer me honestly Kevin, do you love me?”he asked.
“Yes, I do~”
“Then, there’s no problem. You love me and I love you more. We’ll just cross the line when we get there, okay?”
Kevin just nodded timidly.
They talked a bit more that night. Jeff and Kevin were more open this time, every detail of their past and present were revealed. After they’ve opened up their lives with each other, they became closer than they usually were. No secrets, no doubts.. just pure honesty and loyalty.
“It’s late now boo, I guess I have to get going now.” Jeff said before standing up from the couch in Kevin’s sala when Kevin stopped him. “Boo~” “Yes? What’s wrong boo?” Kevin looked at the floor and slightly blushed, “Won’t you stay for the night? I mean.. It’s pretty late now.. and.. I ~ I don’t wanna be alone tonight.”
Glitters came out from Jeff’s eyes, he hugged Kevin and said, “It’s ok boo, I’m here. You’ll never be alone again.” The other guy hugged back.
This decision of Kevin meant nothing more than giving himself a chance to become a part of Jeff. Now that he’s able to introduce himself properly, he’s now ready to accept Jeff fully and become one with him.
“Are you sure you want us to do this, Kevin?” Jeff whispered as they were cuddling on the sofa. He was giving Kevin butterfly kisses on his cheeks, nose, neck and every part of his face.
Kevin, whose arms are around Jeff’s neck nodded in agreement,. “I love you, and I bet it’s about time to return to you every favor and love that you’ve given me. Tonight, I’m all yours.”
After those words, the heat they’re feeling were overflowing. They need each other badly, they were craving, starving like hungry lions in the wild.
Jeff’s butterfly kisses turned into deeper ones. His lips devoured Kevin’s. Kevin slightly opened his mouth for Jeff to dominate him. He kissed back as deep as Jeff did. They’re tongues were fighting for dominance that neither one of them would dare to lose from the other.
“Let’s go somewhere more comfortable.” Jeff winked at Kevin, got into his feet and dragged the smaller guy into his bedroom like there’s no more tomorrow.
When they got inside, Jeff grew wilder. He tossed Kevin’s slim body onto the bed and ran over him. He continued the once disturbed kissed from a while ago, “I love you boo, tell me you’re mine.” He whispered between his kisses.
“I love you Jeff, you’re the most precious one for me now. Please make me yours. I love you.”
Jeff abandoned Kevin’s lips and kissed his neck. He was kissing and savouring every part of Kevin’s face, neck and his collarbone. Jeff slowly took off the barriers, starting off with Kevin’s shirt. It was just like in a blink of an eye and nothing was hidden between them. Every part exposed… the room was cold yet their bodies were sizzling with heat from each other.
Jeff dominated and Kevin was receptive enough to satisfy his boo. They kissed, touched, and explored every detail of each other’s body. “Kevin~ you’re mine. No one can ever touch you except me” Jeff moaned.
Kevin bit his lower lip as Jeff was continuing his business on the other part of his body. “Ohh~ Jeff.. I love you. I’m yours.. no one can have me except you. Please, take me away. Take my sanity away.”
When it was time for their body to finally become one~ Jeff asked Kevin one last time.. “Are you sure you want to do this boo? It will hurt you, you know?”
“I know the consequences Jeff, I love you and I don’t care about anything else. Please take me.”
Jeff kissed him slowly yet full of passion and of love~~ Kevin can feel Jeff’s manhood from behind. He closed his eyes gently when a shot of pain got into his nerves as their body slowly became one. Tears fell. “Are you okay boo?” Jeff asked as he kissed the tears away.” “Yes.. I’m okay. Please go on.”
Jeff started to move gently as so he can feel Kevin tremble below him. But after a few moments as he heard Kevin’s moans out of pleasure and not of pain, he began to drive in faster.
They were dancing to the tune of hearts~ beating as one. Every moan that comes out from their mouth was precious melody that only people in love can appreciate.
As their love making ended, Jeff lied down beside Kevin and hugged the other guy. “Is it still painful? Hush now boo.. Please don’t cry.”
“It’s not that boo, I’m just happy. I mean.. I’ve never felt this way before.” Jeff kissed his tears away and positioned Kevin’s head on his chest. “I love you Kevin, you’re the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. You made me feel loved and cared for. Never will you think that you’ll be lonely again. Coz from this time onwards, we are one.”
Kevin buried his face into Jeff’s chest, “Thank you Jeff and there’s no way I’ll ever let anyone take you away from me.
Making love was done the second time around, this time.. much sweeter and more passionate than the first. No more pain, just pure pleasure and love.
After which, they both fell asleep. Their hearts smiling at full extent.
Chapter 8: The Vacation
After that sweet night, Jeff and Kevin grew even closer with each other. There was a time when Jeff got sick and Kevin stayed beside him. He cooked, served and did everything for Jeff to the extent that he also got sick. When it happened, Jeff also took care of him. It was just a simple act yet it gave a greater impact to their relationship.
“Kevin, do you want to go on a vacation with me?” Jeff asked randomly. They were just hanging out in the park that day.
“Vacation?”
“Yes, vacation. Go out of town, on a trip, together.”
Kevin’s eyes widen with anticipation, “I’d love to!” he said excitedly. The thought of having a vacation somewhere with the man of his life is way too overwhelming. “But, where do you want to go?”
Jeff thought for a moment and gave Kevin a meaningful smile.
Jeju Island: The Island with temperate climate, natural scenery and beaches was their first destination.
They arrived in that paradise-like island and stayed on one of the beach resorts there.
“Ne~ boo, let’s eat first okay before we go to the beach.” Jeff said as they got into their room and placed their bags inside.
“Hmmn. That’s a great idea. I’m starving.” Kevin answered with a smile.
They got into one of the restaurants in the resort. They placed their orders and waited for their sumptuous lunch to arrive.
“Ahh~ boo.. The beach is inviting. Plus the weather is great. Perfect day!” Kevin commented as his vision embraced the area around them.
“You’re right boo. But, what made it perfect is your presence.” Jeff winked. “Pabo~” Kevin hit Jeff’s shoulders and blushed. Jeff laughed lightly at the lovely sight he’s seeing at the moment. “Omona~ have I told you that you’re cuter when you blush?” Jeff added which made Kevin grew redder than he currently is. “Mou~ stop it you pabo~” Before Kevin can hit Jeff again, their lunch arrived.
“Saved by the bell…” Jeff laughed.
They started to eat. Both of them were hungry from the travel and so they ate more than they usually do. They were in the middle of eating when suddenly a pretty girl passed by them but took a second look at Jeff.
“Oppa? Jeff~ You’re here. How have you been?” said the girl with her over-friendly tone.
“Jessica? What are you doing here?” Jeff asked.
“What else is there to be done here? Vacation of course. Va-ca-tion~!” she answered and placed her eyes on Kevin then back to Jeff.
“Oh yeah~ Jes, meet Kevin. Kevin, this is Jessica, a family friend.” He introduced.
“Ohh~ come on Jeff, don’t be too formal. Well, Kevin I used to be Jeff’s girlfriend. You’re a friend right? Must be very special since he went with you here alone.” She tactlessly stated. “Uhmm.. anyhow, I’ll see you later guys, I have to go somewhere in a bit. Nice meeting you Kevin.”
Silence occurred for a few moments before Jeff talked. “She’s a family friend~” “Jeff, you told me that already.” Kevin interrupted. “Let me finish first, okay? Look~ she’s nothing special. She just like a dongsaeng to me.”
“Dongsaeng? How come? An ex-lover as dongsaeng?” Kevin asked sarcastically.
“Yes boo~ just a dongsaeng. I didn’t love her that way. My mom loves her, and she likes her for me. You know about our family, right? Mom has always wanted me to have Jessica as my bride. But you see, I don’t love her. She’s just a little sister to me.” He sighed. “What more now when my heart has been captured badly?”
Kevin was dumbfounded by Jeff’s answers. “But, it’s okay boo. I like it when you’re jealous.” Jeff teased the other guy and it made Kevin come back to his senses. “Pabo~ I’m not jealous. Why would I be?”
“Exactly, why should you be? There’s nothing to be jealous about in the first place. And besides, I’m sure of who my heart wants.” Jeff said, “so, let’s not talk about it ne? Let’s continue our lunch so we could enjoy the beach later on.”
The scenery is just so nice. The sun, the vast blue skies, the white sand and the blue crystal clear waters of the beach; they were perfect. Jeff and Kevin totally forgot the scene in the restaurant and drowned themselves into the heat. They went sun-bathing, played beach volleyball, played in the water. They were like children who for the first time experienced something like this.
“Boo~ that was fun!” Kevin commented when they were in a café later that afternoon.
“Indeed it is boo~ let’s do this again soon. Okay?” Kevin nodded and smiled.
The atmosphere between them was so cute. They were on their laptops but at the same time they were chatting with themselves.
“Don’t you find it weird that we’re just facing each other but we only talk here?” Jeff sent him as a message.
“No, not at all.” Kevin replied.
But suddenly, Jessica showed up from Jeff’s back and covered his eyes, “Guess who?” she asked.
“Come on Jess, it’s obvious that it’s you.” Jeff answered bluntly. She sat beside him and and started to blab.
“Oppa~ they beach is so nice right?”~~”Oppa, let’s go swimming~” “Oppa~this and oppa that” She’s also sitting so near to Jeff and was a little touchy. All her actions, her words, her presence is starting to get into Kevin’s nerve. He tried to ignore it but the girl is really annoying that it pisses him off.
“Would you guys excuse me for a while, I suddenly don’t feel well.” Kevin excused himself and started to stand and leave. “Kevin wait up~ I’ll go with you.” Jeff asked. “No Jeff, stay here first. Jessica’s here anyway,” there was a ring of jealousy in his voice which made Jeff smile.
Kevin has just exited the café door but to his surprise, Jeff was already a few steps away. “Hey boo~ wait up.” Kevin stopped and faced him. “Pabo~ why’d you left that annoying girl alone. She’ll think something’s between us.” He said worriedly. “Then let her think what she wants to think~ it doesn’t matter at all.” He answered and started to walk. He got Kevin’s arms and led him back to their room.
“Jeff~ what if…” They were already inside of their room.
“What if what… boo?”
“What if Jessica knows about us and report us to your parents?” he continued.
“I don’t care Kevin~”
“Are you out of your mind??? You know the consequences, right?”
“I know. I know fully what those consequences are. And don’t worry about Jessica’s thoughts. I have this feeling that she knows it beforehand~ so just relax okay? Come here and join me in bed.” He commanded.
Kevin lied down beside him. The taller guy offered his arms for Kevin to use as pillow. After some time~ they were both peacefully taking a nap.
Later that night~~~
“Jeff, I wanna sleep on the shore. Will you allow me?” he asked.
“What? Why there? It’s already dark and you know, this isn’t a private resort. A lot of people are out there too.”
“But boo~” Kevin started to sound stubborn.
“No more buts boo~ what if the waves will get you away from me? I wouldn’t like that. You want that to happen?”
Kevin giggled at Jeff’s answer. He wanted to laugh but he find it really sweet in a way, “Pabo~~” and faced back.
Jeff found this opportunity and hugged Kevin from the back and blew softly into Kevin’s ears. “Boo~~” Kevin protested.
“Don’t worry ne, boo. We’ll do what you want on our next vacation. Okay? We could rent a rest house in Okinawa. Only us will be there, we can sleep by the shore there or even do something else~.
“Pabo~ you hentai!” Kevin blurted out.
Jeff laughed. He was still hugging Kevin from the back and later on he slowly made him face him. Still on the hugging position, “I love you boo~” and kissed Kevin. A sweet night was again shared on their first vacation together.
All insecurities, inhibitions and worries faded. Kevin was sure that no one can ever take Jeff away from him. Like he could even allow that to happen.
Chapter 9: The Decision
We’ll cross the line when we get there. That’s what Jeff usually answers Kevin when he asks his “What if’s”. However this time, he’s already in the verge of crossing this feared line.
Jeff has this feeling that his appa’s secretary was snooping around his personal life. His family is strict as was described in the previous chapters. And Jeff wanted change. He used to be this cold and cunning type of rich kid. He’s serious and somehow described himself as a boring one. And since he wanted to change, he joined Tagged. It’s a social website which helped Jeff discover the other side of him. He found some precious friends who have been part of his life. And also, this site played a really big role in his love life. It is where his relationship with Kevin blossomed.
However for some reason, he decided to cut ties with this site. It’s not very healthy for him and for Kevin anymore. Aside from the fact that there are a lot of girls who are trying to judge them and are trying to ruin their relationship, somehow, this site served as a source of information from the people around his family. And in order to avoid anything bad from happening, he deleted it.
“Hello? Boo~ delete your tagged account now and wait for me there. Keep your things, we’re moving somewhere else.” He said as soon as Kevin received his call.
“Ehh? But why?” Kevin asked curiously.
“I’ll explain later boo~ just trust me and do it, okay? I’ll be in your place in an hour.” He commanded.
“Err~ okay.” Although he’s still curious, Kevin didn’t doubt Jeff even a bit. He packed his clothes and his things. And he logged in to Tagged, only to delete it. “But, why even my Tagged account? What about our friends? How can I keep in touch with them?” Even with the presence of these questions on his head, he still did what Jeff asked him to. “I know he has a reason for this, I guess I’ll have to wait.”
Few minutes later Jeff arrived. “Are you ready boo?” he asked as he kissed Kevin on the cheek.
“Yes, but, why boo? Can you at least answer me that?” he started to get emotional as worry embraced him. He started to get teary-eyed.
Jeff made him sit on the sofa, “Boo~ I’m sorry it has to be this way. It’s so sudden but I guess the line we’re afraid of crossing finally came.”
“You mean?” he asked, as an idea was starting to build in his mind.
“Yes boo~ it’s not safe anymore. Let’s live together as husband and wife. Boo~ I don’t know but you’re the only important thing to me now. I don’t care anymore. I have rented an apartment for both of us from the side jobs I had. And we’ll live together. We’ll start new, I know it’s hard but let’s stick together. I want to keep you with me boo~”
Kevin couldn’t say anything, he was crying. He can’t keep his emotions any further. He doesn’t have the slightest idea of what they’ll become but as long as he’s with Jeff, he’ll fear nothing. He’s at his strongest when he’s with his boo.
He hugged Jeff~. “We can do this boo, I promised you right? Never, even in my thoughts run away from you. You are my life now boo~ and whatever it takes, I’ll do it as long as we’re together.”
“Thank you so much Kevin. Thanks or understanding me. And I’m really sorry for involving you with this. I’m really sorry.”
“You don’t have to say sorry boo. You’ve sacrificed enough. You’ve done everything and go against a lot of rules just to be with me. I’m the one who’s supposed to say sorry to you… for bringing you into this kind of relationship.”
“Kevin, listen. This kind of relationship isn’t to be sorry about. We both chose it. We both embraced it and accepted it. We’re just in love. The feeling is mutual. And to think~ This relationship introduced me to the true meaning of life and happiness. Let’s treasure what we have boo~. Let’s treasure this and protect this love, forever.”
“I love you boo~ forever.” Kevin initiated the kiss this time and hugged Jeff tightly like it’s the last time.
“I love you more, Kevin. Let’s get going now. To our new life; just you and me.”
Both of them left Kevin’s apartment and transferred to their new home. Kevin and Jeff were putting out their stuffs to their new home when Kevin asked, “Boo~ what about our friends? I mean.. those in tagged?”
Jeff smiled. “Don’t worry, Harumi has my email. I know she’ll contact us as soon as she discovers that we’re both missing from that side. She’ll help us to come in contact with our close friends there. Okay?”
Kevin smiled. “Thanks Jeff, I’ll really miss them. They’ve been part of our lives, bessy, your best friend and our pretty daughter.”
“Me too boo~ but we’ll get in contact with them again.”
Kevin and Jeff got in contact with their close friends. It’s even better than before coz they’re in contact with them privately, without other people judging them, only the friends who supported and protected their relationship.
Their life continued as husband and wife. It was tough. Jeff played his role of being a husband pretty well. He continued his side jobs and earn for himself and his boo~~ Kevin became a really responsible wife, taking care of the house works and his husband as well.
This is the decision they made. They chose to go against the rules; they left everything else just to be with each other. Worst comes to worst, what’s important for them is that, they’re together.
I’m not gonna put a “Happily ever after” for this isn’t the end yet~~~ they’ll experience more ups and downs as life goes on. Their love story will continue forever~~ and even life after forever. :3 TO BE CONTINUED... ~Tegoshei Harumi
